Remember the time...

That was always a favorite of mine.

ben x

I <3 Bungie...

...and their new Render-to-Video beta service.

ben x

I feel too happy to be making lenghty blog posts right now. Even though one is well overdue. I don't even know why...summer just amazes me.

For now enjoy this, that and the other.

ben x

Dammit I'm mad.
Evil is a deed as I live.
God, am I reviled? I rise, my bed on a sun, I melt.
To be not one man emanating is sad. I piss.
Alas, it is so late. Who stops to help?
Man, it is hot. I'm in it. I tell.
I am not a devil. I level "Mad Dog".
Ah, say burning is, as a deified gulp,
In my halo of a mired rum tin.
I erase many men. Oh, to be man, a sin.
Is evil in a clam? In a trap?
No. It is open. On it I was stuck.
Rats peed on hope. Elsewhere dips a web.
Be still if I fill its ebb.
Ew, a spider… eh?
We sleep. Oh no!
Deep, stark cuts saw it in one position.
Part animal, can I live? Sin is a name.
Both, one… my names are in it.
Murder? I'm a fool.
A hymn I plug, deified as a sign in ruby ash,
A Goddam level I lived at.
On mail let it in. I'm it.
Oh, sit in ample hot spots. Oh wet!
A loss it is alas (sip). I'd assign it a name.
Name not one bottle minus an ode by me:
"Sir, I deliver. I'm a dog"
Evil is a deed as I live.
Dammit I'm mad.

Someone will figure it out; surely.

ben x

'I want to remember that the sky is so gorgeously large, I feel stranded beneath it.'

ben x

Tom Jones - If He Should Ever Leave You - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

"If he should ever leave you..."

ben x

The Hourglass...

"They will soon be nothing; nothing but last years high's and low's"

In one and bit days it's my birthday. I'm turning 18. Yay.

Everything I once wanted has gone and I suddenly find myself in a place between expectation and realization. The lifestyles we all lead force us to believe that one day we will all be rich and therefore happy because of it, the media throwing images of wealth and affluence at us every day. The truth; that the smallest amount will actually achieve these levels is a lie to our generation catalysed by our own actions. Non-conformist's are all just conforming to non-conformism.

I gave Jeniferever's new album 'Spring Tides' a full listen today on the way home from Winchester. I downloaded it when it came out but haven't had the chance to listen with complete concentration yet. It is incredible. The amount of talent in that one band astounds me. Sweden always seemed like a place of genius. Here's a RapidShare if you feel like divulging into the epicness. Let me know if the link's broken or it's not the whole album. Just listen to 'Green Meadow Island' for starters. It will hopefully blow your mind.

I shouldn't feel this way with my birthday so close. Maybe I'll feel a sense of revelation come Sunday morning knowing that I'm actually only 18. I've got so much of the world still to see and so many people to enjoy it with. I still just can't work out whether I've already lost the thing I wanted the most or not. I guess I'll find out in the next couple of decades or so.

To living. And living epic.

ben x